Unfortunately heavily relate, still don't know if I have bpd but I was off the rails for a good few years, made me do stuff I look back on and it's like looking at a very different person. It can be somewhat excused cause I was going and when your young you don't have as much grasp on your emotions or the tools to know how to deal with things. But still feel bad for those I hurt. But anyway I relate alot to-

- the chameleon comment and struggle with identity, I still do now. Growing up I just took on the personality of those around me to fit in and belong because being alone was scarier than being with people I didn't even particularly like. Being different as well meant getting bullied but If you were with others that was less likely to happen. But because of that safety stuff I felt like I didn't really know who I was

Didn't know my hobbies or even my favourite colour and over the years I moulded myself more to accommodate to others, to be less controversial out of safety. But now Adays I try to be more challenging and confrontational and not care as much about fitting in just because I want to feel safe, when it's uncomfortable to pretend to be something I'm not. I'm still figuring out stuff out though but that's my ted talk