that 'empty void' feeling i honestly cant go a day without thinking about it. feels like there's smth wrong with me for not expressing strongly about general topics or to others. constant cycle of feeling numb even tho i have so much i wanna do pertaining to hobbies. i keep fantasizing about some kinda anchor i can latch onto and push me enough to be any sort of decent contributor to society. but its never enough.
this is sick!