Maybe I'm reading too much into this, but I'm curious what you mean by "I care too much about my fellow person" when you talk about not wanting a managerial position. In many ways, you've described yourself as already taking up a lot of that role within your current work environment, even suggesting you have it in all but name. Are you worried that having actually authority would corrupt or distance you in some way?
I'm more ok with organizing things, less ok with the idea of having to suggest someone be fired or outright firing them myself. People have mouths to feed, bills to pay, and other problems. I'm far too empathetic to the plight of the worker to be in a position where I am forced to put that to the side.
Adding to that, I hate the idea of being the right hand of the corporate fuedal state. I work to live, not to help the company's profits and appease investors. If I knew that I would be doing all the excess stuff that I've been having to do I would not have applied to this job. As is, I didn't. I applied for an entirely different position.
I had been told during my interview that "we can hire you for this or we can give you a janitorial position which is pretty laid back" which I have come to find out was a military recruiter level lie.
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Maybe I'm reading too much into this, but I'm curious what you mean by "I care too much about my fellow person" when you talk about not wanting a managerial position. In many ways, you've described yourself as already taking up a lot of that role within your current work environment, even suggesting you have it in all but name. Are you worried that having actually authority would corrupt or distance you in some way?
I'm more ok with organizing things, less ok with the idea of having to suggest someone be fired or outright firing them myself. People have mouths to feed, bills to pay, and other problems. I'm far too empathetic to the plight of the worker to be in a position where I am forced to put that to the side.
Adding to that, I hate the idea of being the right hand of the corporate fuedal state. I work to live, not to help the company's profits and appease investors. If I knew that I would be doing all the excess stuff that I've been having to do I would not have applied to this job. As is, I didn't. I applied for an entirely different position.
I had been told during my interview that "we can hire you for this or we can give you a janitorial position which is pretty laid back" which I have come to find out was a military recruiter level lie.