good god

a higher thing or made up?

is there a god? why do people think there are evil things down there and heavenly things up there? did they make the hole thing up for made up hope? made up guidence? weres the proof that there is a god? whats the point of beliving in something that MAY OR MAY NOT have proof? (meaning what happens after death)what happens after death? why do people accept that? are they ingorent? or am i the ingorent one for thinking that in the first place? what IS REAILTY WHATS THE TRUTH? WHY CANT THERE BE ANSWERS, IS THERE ANSWERS IV JUST HAVENT SEEN, HEARD, EXPERANCED? HOW CAN THEY lIvE THE SAME CICAL OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN THE SAME THING THE SAME FEELINGS NOTHING NEW NOTHING EXTRAVGANT NOTHING MAGNIFICENT,NOTHING THAT CAPSURES BEAUTY, THAT IS BEAUTY, GOOD GOD I WISH FOR THAT I BEG FOR THAT, I DONT KNOW WHO OR WHAT I AM PRAYING TO BUT OUT OF PATHETIC DESPERATION I STILL BEG. god its pathetic.

patheticness

IIII iiIIiiIiiii iii ii ii i i i i i feel pathetic, really hopeless, i feel bathroom feelies so im gonna finish these words later

the disgust oh the DISGUST OHHH AHHH OHHHHHOOHHH OHO HO HHHO H OHHHH OHHHH OHHHH AHHH MOCKING OHH LA AL ALLALALAL LALALALALA