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swiftred 2 years ago

I forgot to put back buttons on two of my blog posts, so figured I'd fix that. I doubt anyone is paying that close attention to me, but it feels better just to announce that I may not update the site for awhile. I'm feeling burnt out and stressed, so I'm trying to give time to let it pass.

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lizonline 2 years ago

Take your time and feel better soon! Stress is no fun, don't over-extend yourself working on your website ^_^

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you kindly!

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soulbox 2 years ago

Get some rest, treat yourself kindly. ^^

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kph 2 years ago

GOD, that's so real. Grad school really made me forget I have the kind of neurodivergence where monotony feels like I'm dying. I've been planning to travel a lot. Learning to juggle, reading really hard books, starting ambitious projects. Looking for jobs when all that doesn't work. I do think you should keep an eye on jobs in Toronto if that's where you want to be!

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I found your site by searching through the knitting tag. It's so cute!!

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swiftred updated their site.

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swiftred 2 years ago

A wild blog post appears! in which I tell you why I'm a silly goose

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miela583 2 years ago

Part of my job is customer support over the phone, and I suspect some people expect that if they are talking to someone following the golden rule, it’s their privilege to take advantage of it. Being kind is still important, I think, but I agree with your conclusion here pretty thoroughly.

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iztopher 2 years ago

Ugh, this is such a good post and such a hard lesson to learn, I feel you. My partner and I had to sit down and talk about this because I kept operating under this rule, but the way I wanted to be treated wasn't necessarily the way she did, and vice versa. I hope you can get back some of the kindness you put out into the world, even if it's expressed differently.

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

This is a wonderful entry, one I (and I'm sure countless others) really feel. I was actually talking earlier to a friend about something related; our ways of masking our autism often comes out as extreme politeness, and for me specifically, submissiveness. It is hard for me to identify sometimes that when I laugh at a stranger's joke I don't find funny, or smile and nod my agreement, etc., if that is -

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

- me wanting to be kind and acting out of my heart, or simply the way I feel I must behave. It's certainly a nuanced thing, especially when taking into consideration what you've said about how everyone loves and needs differently. Commencing my yapping now!

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swiftred 2 years ago

It made my day to hear that you both enjoyed and related to my post, and it's nice knowing I'm not the only one <3 thank you for commenting. @iztopher thank you for the well wishes!!

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swiftred 2 years ago

@phi1l1y I honestly think masking is such a bigger part of this than I give credit for. I've been trying to unmask in small ways, like trying not to be overly emotive, or compulsively smile all the time at everyone and, like you said, not laugh at unfunny things, and I realize just how deeply ingrained it is!! You're right that it's hard to separate. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts!

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swiftred

2 years ago

I've never been so excited to write before =) Muse is such a gift. And many thank you's to the overwhelmingly kind reception of my writing

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tehuan 2 years ago

awwwwh i'm so glad to hear it :] your writing is so wonderful

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you lots!!

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apples-room updated their site.

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swiftred updated their site.

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swiftred 2 years ago

My second entry for muse is now out =) I'm letting out a deep sigh as I release this one

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fairygore 2 years ago

this felt like it was so cathartic for you. sending you much love <3

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swiftred 2 years ago

Very much so, thank you <3 <3

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owlroost 2 years ago

I'm proud of you for finding that way out and holding tight to it. It's okay to be scared of the unknown, but it says a lot about a person's strength when they continue alongside their fear. I believe in you. Sending all the best wishes- may life be an upwards arc of things getting better for you from here.

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iztopher 2 years ago

I'm proud of you for making it this far, and I'm excited for the next chapter of your life! may it give you the breathing space you need to find out how to be yourself as an adult. i definitely relate to feeling like you've lost your younger fire

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cheytopia 2 years ago

Wishing you all the peace and space to heal and grow. I'm so glad you made it to a safe place <3

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kph 2 years ago

Wow! I've got chills. You're a very clear and emotive writer. And I'm so very excited for you, with the end of this dark winter in sight. Sort of like a yule celebration--you're halfway through this long dark. :)

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swiftred 2 years ago

@owlroost that means so so much, thank you for the well wishes and kind words. I definetely viewed my fear as a weakness, so this is a beautiful, empowering reframe

swiftred 2 years ago

@iztopher thank you so much <3 I really appreciate it

swiftred 2 years ago

@cheytopia thank you <3

swiftred 2 years ago

@kph that's very evocative imagery, thank you for the thoughtful message. It's about time, it's been night for so long! It touches me that you find my writing to be clear and emotive. I will hold that close to me for a long time <3

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tehuan 2 years ago

wow, this piece was so intense and wonderful. so proud of you for how far you've made it. it's always okay to be scared, and i'm wishing you luck as time goes on!

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you so much @tehuan <3 <3

swiftred updated their site.

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swiftred 2 years ago

So many wonderful additions to the button wall. I'm so grateful for all the new, positive interactions <3

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veyther 2 years ago

YOOOOO IM THERE HI BUTTON ME (I honestly really want to make a mutals page maybe thats what ill tonight hrmm yes i think I will) ALso I listened to ctrl by sza because you said it was one of your favourite albums on your about page and it is just so damn good!!!

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swiftred 2 years ago

YOOOOOOO HI =D I can't believe you listened to it because of me :,3 I'm really glad you liked it!! It brought me so much comfort, I had it on repeat for at least four months

swiftred frequency-modulator

2 years ago

I would like to express my gratitude for the follow =) I love your dream closet by the way!! So stylish, and what a great idea!

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swiftred vagueshape

2 years ago

Thank you for the follow! I really resonate with "She's Just Shy" and "It's Funny" from your "Why I Left Home" zine. Looking back at the younger self is so profound, so sad, so loving, so many things

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vagueshape 2 years ago

omg thank you! i honestly never expected anyone to read any of my work lol, but i'm glad it resonated :)

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swiftred rareoarfishsightings

2 years ago

Hey, I appreciate the follow! I've been really grappling with impostor syndrome myself. I somehow act surprised that I'm not the only one. I wish you luck on your artistic journey, and I know encouraging words don't necessarily beat the impostor syndrome, but I really enjoy how you draw your characters, and the color + lighting on your log post is masterful.

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rareoarfishsightings 2 years ago

super kind of you to reach out whaaaa ..... thank you so much, it's been getting better ! love your art as well, hope the your imposter syndrome gets better too

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swiftred 2 years ago

Glad to hear it! And thank you lots <3

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swiftred notprincehamlet

2 years ago

Thank you for the follow! I look forward to your bookbug review ;3

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swiftred myrrh

2 years ago

I really enjoy how you presented prompt 1 for muse :) I've gone back to it a few times, it surprised me in a good way

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ocrevol 2 years ago

same here, it's extremely compelling

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myrrh 2 years ago

Oh ! Thanks guys ! :)

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swiftred girlfreak

2 years ago

Hey, thank you for the follow! Your website has such a warmth, a fullness, and especially the background- it's almost nostalgic? And I look forward to your writing for muse :3

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swiftred tsumugsfish

2 years ago

I accidentally deleted your comment to me!! I gasped!! Thank you kindly for the follow. I love Goro Akechi,,, the normal amount (it's not normal). I love that you have an akechi shrine, beautiful. Btw your website is so cozy and sleek :D

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