haha relateable, as someone who did not learn HTML or CSS until now, I have no idea how I got this far. You can do it!

but these days i struggle to even understand what i am reading within my own code here on my website, let alone the newer templates that i want to mess around with. i also felt that i needed a website that worked on a mobile device if i wanted to share it with anyone outside of this community. and i struggled with doing that. i already felt that i struggled bc i use a giant monitor compared to average. (2/?)

im also really bad with words so please DONT take this the wrong way, but i have found the communities (here and the various discords) to be intimidating to me. everyone is so very talented and has such big visions and plans for the internets future and im just... trying to catch a vibe. idk. it was easy to get in my own head and compare myself to others. (3/?)

so with everything kind of just piling up in my brain, i just stopped creating and i hid. but social media sucks and i would like to have my own space again. i have a template im working with ( from ribozone) but my progress on it has been kind of slow bc i dont understand. i also need to figure out if im going to edit this neocities or use the webspace i pay stupid money for that i dont even use lol. (4/?)

if you've ever said anything nice about my website or you still visit it, thank you. i love checking the messages on it and it makes me smile when you say ive inspired you or brought you joy. i hope that one day the internet is a happy place again. i would love to share my art with you authentically and not feel like its a competition. thank u. love u.. (5/5)

I really appreciate you saying this and I relate and feel very seen right now

As someone else who is 36, I feel this so hard! I go through long periods of being stressed about the "quality" of my site/code, too. I think your desire to just have a place to vibe online without worry about an audience, comparison or "content" is a beautiful and important feeling. It should only ever be about fun! I love your site so much, and I'd love to see anything you make, here or otherwise! :3

Hope you make it back here! I think your page is all kinds of awesome, and yeah some ppl are very competitive but the reason I follow a site is that the creator seems like a cool person with similar interests :) That's all that matters

working on my end! i clicked on one of the playlists- using Brave browser (chromium based). sick hover gradient btw

@humantooth - oh yay! i checked and they are working on my end too. i must of clicked when it was overloaded or something.

what about it

ok they got suspended.

they got suspended.

woof I know. I was asked to be a mod but the i dont have ability to make more, and the admin is pretty hands off. I'll try and get a hold of them. if youre interested or recommend anyone lmk